hate that the best way to stave off self hate is to do like useless repetitive tasks bc those are useless and make me even more useless. i wish i could get better by doing something worthwhile. it jst sounds like an excuse. even to me.
i was watching elementary and its an ep about a case where a bomb was planted under a table in a restaurant to gte at a couple of bank execs/ppl from the dept. of labor and for some reason all the sudden i got r scared about my dads safety, cause hes going to nyc for an awards thing for his company this week and i dont know i just super cant function w/o him rn and stuff and i just got really… scared… thanks for joining me on irrational fear hr remember to tip yr waiters.
A reminder for today that supporting the idea that Oxford or Sir Francis Bacon or whoever wrote Shakespeare’s works is inherently classist and undermines the very essence of what makes Shakespeare great: the universality of his writing.
Shakespeare didn’t write to impress academics or to become reknown in literary circles, he wrote because he loved it and he loved acting and the theater, because he liked showing people up and he liked getting paid.
Shakespeare wrote a lot of plays where the main characters are noble, yes, but he wrote actors too — and teenage kids and poor grad students and nurses. His nobles aren’t memorable because they are grand but because anyone can relate to them, Hamlet’s not special to us because he’s a prince but because many of us can see our struggles in his thoughts and actions.
Do not let Oxfordians or Baconians take away what is special about Shakespeare: that he was an ordinary man writing plays not just for nobles or kings, for landowners or the highly educated elite but for ordinary people — for apprentices and butchers and merchant’s wives and maids. His company performed at court, but they also performed at the Globe, where you could get in for a penny if you didn’t mind standing in a crowd.
The Authorship Question isn’t really about discovering “who really wrote Shakespeare,” it’s about elitists being upset and confused and angry because the greatest works in the English language were written by the son of a well-off tradesman who never went to college.
& Part of the pervasive problem is that supposed allies, supposed progressive white cishet dudes, are all for giving it a pass and tone policing the people who are furious :(
HA HA YEAH
i have taken classes from/work for (“work for” ive barely engaged w/ the job at all the past month because im a POS but thats a different matter) a dude who’s an “ally” and ive lit had that convo, the “oh, its only a few people, oh, it’s fine! oh, you shouldn’t be angry you should work on changing things!!! you, 22 yr old queer girl, have the power to Change Things all on yr own even as I give this shit a pass : ) “
i hate that i hate it so much. in some ways i hate it MORE than the real vitriolic outspoken obvious assholes, because at least you know where you stand with them, you know. at least you can point at them and go “this is fucking wrong” and people are forced to agree with you. but passive supporters of systems that fucking wreck people who nominally support marginalized groups and tone police and float around refusing to take a stand or say anything that might piss people off or alienate people anger me beyond compare.
like just ignoring problems like this except for extraordinary cases is why this happens. this is how we get here. the more you let things slide the more extraordinarily terrible people the community is going to attract because they know they can get away with it.
im furious. im actually fucking furious. i was already upset about the shit quality of the ballot but now im fucking enraged. i hate this fucking community i fucking hate it. there are cool and great people who write sf and engage w the sf community and go to cons and all that shit but theres these assholes
and its so important to realize and recognize and fucking SEETHE about the fact that these are NOT SOME TINY FEW EXCEPTIONAL ASSHOLES these are people deeply rooted in this shit people who have supporters this is a PERVASIVE PROBLEM in a SIGNIFICANT PART of the fandom.
which is to say, blame reactionary right-wing voting blocs.
i mean, i already figured that it was ballot stuffing due to like, u kno, ppls friends pulling this sorta shit i just didn’t realize that it was this blatent and the names of ppl didn’t connect w/ the. terrible people i’ve read about. so its not that much of a surprise. im just disappointed in myself for being so shit w/ names and not connecting it instantly.
Larry Correia, creator of the ”Sad Puppies” campaign to get his novel nominated for a Hugo, urged those buying Loncon 3 memberships in order to nominate Warbound to consider filling in the rest of their ballots with his slate of 11 other recommendations.
GREAT. IM GLAD THAT HE’S NOT JUST SOMEONE WHO WRITES SHIT LIKE “WARBOUND: BOOK THREE OF THE GRIMNOIR CHRONICLES” BUT ALSO AN ACTUAL SHIT PERSON
great. its always great when shit writers (and to be fair i have not read his work but LIKE……. grimnoir chronicles… and if i buy a supporting membership i will totally read it if only to cry im just not spending any fucking money on it) are also shit people, because it makes things way easier!!!!! awesome!
all these posts are making me want to get back into keeping up w/ sci-fi stuff like i did during middle school & the beginning of high school siGHS THERE’S JUST SO /MUCH/
YEAH THERES A LOT
like i can only read like, a wee bit of the amnt I want to, and also keep abreast of the Gossip b/c i am a gossip-y jerk. + sometimes i am utterly Unable to read stories that i want to actually enjoy/that are like not things that ive read twenty times before.
i will say, there are podcasts you can listen to if you wanna listen to stories but don’t have time to sit down and read everything! when i am Capable to listen to stories that require attention & emotion and stuff i listen to:
great well im going to have to go on gmail for the first time in who knows how long prayer circle hold hands finally fucking emailing my profs which i should have done two weeks ago im shit etc prayer circle prayer cirlce
the good news is when i see that i missed deadlines i kick into self-hate energy mode where im like WELP GUESS I GOTTA GO FAST……
“Oh yeah, that was the biggest joke of all. I think that there is a general pattern of “white-ifying” everything. Just because they make Heimdall black in the Thor movies doesn’t really make a counterargument. In fact, the amount of what they call “racebending” that goes on in Hollywood is extraordinary. I mean, I have sat down with agents who will tell me straight up, “Listen, you write about Dominicans in New Jersey. We can make an indie film about this, but nobody in Hollywood wants to see anything but white leads.” And so when I heard that they wanted to cast all white characters in Akira, it just really shows you how little the dream factory of our popular culture has caught up with the diverse reality of our present. I mean, the nation in which we live — and the world in which we live — is so extraordinarily more like a future than the futures that we’re being sold on the screen and on television.”—
someone unfollowed me — presumably someone who is a fan of WARBOUND: BOOK THREE OF THE GRIMNOIR CHRONICLES.
no that is a joke ya’ll can unfollow me at any time for any reason no qs asked.
I’m actually making this post b/c that reminded me that some people might not want Endless Hugo Talk on their dash and so the tags that I always use are — #shittalking thru the hugos, as well as #hot scifi life, that one being my more general trashtalk bout scifi everything is terrible woe is me etc tag.
on the limping bright side of the hugopocalypse, there are some stories sitting cheek-by-jowl with the shit that are incredible -- in the short story section john chu is a well-known POC queer writer and his story nomination is SO GOOD 100%.
I HAVENT READ THAT ONE YET!!!!! But score I am GLAD it is Good!!!
And I mean, there are a few nominees in the novelette/novella categories that im raising my eyebrows & shaking my fist at, but also there’s a new Ted Chiang story and those do not happen that often and are always wonderful, and a story by Aliette de Bodard, and Mary Robinette Kowal, and Valente’s novella, and Andy Duncan & Ellen Klages’s novella. I haven’t read a bunch of these yet but they were all things on my to-read list that i will, be reading w/ more urgency now, and all authors I feel P Good About in general.
like if u absolutely HAVE 2 vote for one white dude, andy duncan is actually a v v v nice guy and v Aware of his privilege as a white dude in america most of the time. everyone else i mentioned is not white dude. vote for the least amount of whitedudes possible.
AND, U KNo, pacific rim, saga, those are both good & have diverse creative teams — or at least diverse-er if that makes sense. “queers dig time lords” is a Cool Concept tho i dont kno if the actual essays will be worth much. there’s good shit, its just frustrating knowing what didn’t make the cut so that shit could be presented to us on a silver platter
the more i think about “warbound: book three of the grimnoir chronicles ” the angrier i get.
because its basically urban fantasy but its written u know. AH, GRIM!!! ah, MAN!!!!! a man write. a man write thing, V Testosterone.
but like, yr avg. urban fantasy no. cooties. Must Mock. Must…. Deride.
like this is basically a dudelier shittier version of what ppl like Seanan McGuire do, and while I have some Problems w/ some of McGuire’s shit, like, im pretty sure i have less problems w/ it than i would if/when i read warbound fuckin book three of the grimnoir chronicles.
McGuire actually is on the ballot for best novel — and was last year too and I think maybe the year before as well? — but under her penname Mira Grant, for her zombies books. I’ve never read any of the zombie books so I can’t compare their quality vs. her more urban fantasy fare, but I still think it probably says something when those get nominated but other shit by her thats in more Fantasy/~~girly~~~~~~~~~ subgenres doesn’t. Like, esp. since it’s not like it’s a secret that Grant = McGuire, and under both names she’s like reasonably popular.
I can’t believe this. I can’t fucking believe this. Lmao sorry I’m just getting progressively angrier over it. I haven’t read that many novels from 2013 because I’m bad at reading novels, but like lit any single one i’ve read could go on the ballot instead of that one. I didn’t like Life After Life that much but i’d much rather it be on the ballot. I nominated Mary Robinette Kowal’s book b/c it was genuinely the best out of the series she’s written and it was Good and said Good Things and yeah. ive never touched the wheel of time series but from what i know its inclusion on the ballot is sort of Shameful. im not that into charles stross so who knows about that one, but like there are reasons im not that into charles stross so. u kno.
like lit. the only good option here (besides maybe the mira grant novel? again i get Bored by zombies and ive never read the other ones so shrug) is ancillary justice by ann leckie, which ive heard a lot of good stuff about, and which apparently has Interesting & Good Gender Stuff.
fuckin. and some of these losers on other parts of the ballot I HATE IT i HATE IT when you can tell shit writing got on the ballot cause the writer has a lot of buddies privileged enough 2 vote on the nominations. its one thing to vote for something a friend wrote because like, u believe in the friend and its genuinely good , and then there’s this you know?
im like, the more i think about it the more EMBARRASSED i am by this fucking ballot.
theres good stories on here but jsut the absolute , fucking , shit thats getting buoyed up and presented as equal to it is embarrassing.
that episode terrified me when i was younger. also i like for when they did the singalong song compilation they changed the lyrics (in universe!) because the original version is horrifying
omg really, thats great. yeah that ep is probably among the more perilous I remember watching???? dude is serious about just chuckin people into a furnace. iirc the furnace itself was Terrifying and also possibly shaped like a bunny.
the more i look back at veggie tales the more i realize just how strange it actually is
i think u mean, how remarkable. who among us was not Changed by silly songs w/ larry. that being, the part of the show where larry comes out and sings a silly song. who among us was not first introduced to monty python & the holy grail jokes at a tender age via the french peas in the jericho episode.
I REMEMBER THAT there’s like….mechanical chickens…..
when i was a kid i knew like, the actual non-veg story of shadrach meshach and abednego so i knew what the Moral of the Story was supposed to be but i was always still a little miffed @ them for passing up such a prime Chocolate Bunny Eating Opportunity near the beginning
WHOOPS SORRY THE MORE I RESEARCH SPECIFICALLY ABOUT CYRIL & METHODIUS’S GEOGRAPHICAL LOCATIONS AT VARIOUS TIMES THE MORE PISSED OFF I GET AT OCSfor the “too far north and west for this fictional place in this geographic area in the 890s to have been reached by students of cyril & methodius/to have been missionaried/to have? gotten ahold of the glagolitic alphabet?”
like ok i kno that , he probs didnt mean “too far north and west for? what i know of where ppl went during the late 9th century?”
but no sorry tHAT doesnt even make sense at all. ??? because while cyril & methodius were byzantine, and based ocs a bunch on macedonian slav dialects from WHAT I GATHER #bad at language, they based it off of those dialects not cause they were using the dialects of the locals they were creating the script for, but because that’s where they grew up, in Thessalonica (which was the second largest city in the byzantine empire at that time)
and they went to constantinople, obvs, i think more than once. and at some point I guess cyril was sent to the Abbasid Caliphate to discuss the Holy Trinity with Muslim theologians (presumably they all just hung out and cyril went “fucked if i know” for like a year), so that woulda had him going to where the caliph ruled @ that point, which was Samarra
and he was a missionary to the Khazar Khaganate too. and at this point i gotta point out that cyril was an anti-semetic douche, i guess because he went to the khaganate, which was like officially state-religionally jewish at this point (well, “state,” the khazars were a semi-nomadic people but their royalty converted to Judaism somewhere around 750 CE). and the khan there was super chill about jews & christians & muslims all hanging out and cohabitating and being equal in his lands, which really grilled cyril’s cheese. “eQUALL/?!1 religio n »>???? no…… must write….. polemics …..”
ANYWAY The point is, the place c&m actually went to to create the glagolitic alphabet/what would eventually be cyrillic/the basis for Old Church Slavonic was Great Moravia, which isn’t a country anymore and hasn’t been for u kno A WHILE. and I think the capitol was this wee place called Velehrad which used to not be as wee but now is. and it was on the morava river about where the border b/t the czech republic and slovakia is now.
THE RED POINTS ARE ALL PLACES C&M WOULD HAVE LIVED/TRAVELED. THE ONE IN THE CZECH REPUBLIC AREA IS WHERE THEY MADE OCS. THE BLUE POINT IS KIEV. THE YELLOW ONE IS APPROX WHERE ORSON SCOTT CARD FICTIONAL COUNTRY WOULD BE AROUND .
"too far north and west" gAHHhhhhh
i swear i would be spending less time on this if i didnt actually need a better grasp on who was doing what where in the early middle ages for Real Actual Cool People reasons
if u go to the wiki page for the first bulgarian empire, it says that the Byzantine Empire took over/invaded the kingdom and were like “hey… we’ll give some back…. if u convert : OOOO” but if u go to the page of like, hist of christianity in the 9th century, it conveniently leaves that …. ou t…..
tho also both do mention the fact that the byzantines were like “shit shit shit we gotta get those dudes” because i think the western christians (um probably the HRE? i think that was around by 864) were making overtures to the bulgarians and/or the byzantine empire THOUGHT they were or might, and that was Not Okay.
sometimes im like half confident more wars/conflicts in this general… area and time period… were due to conflict b/t eastern & western orthodoxy and not b/c of the trad. story that ppl say, like, christians vs. muslims . which was THERE, but — anyway like its, i think at least but this is me going into paranoid Theorizing and wild speculation, ignoring the political ramifications of trying to secure land thru conversion by both the patriarch in constantinople & the pope in rome during the early/mid middle ages simplifies the narrative. as does ignoring stuff like muslim populations in christian states and christian populations in muslim states and jewish populations in both (tho depending on where and when being not a member of the state religion had different consequences of different severities.)
like, because, sorry this is SUPER paranoia, but you know — simplifying the narrative into One Team vs. The Other Team and forcing that narrative more along the lines of what we think of in an us vs. them sense makes things Easier. so we do that. and sidestep around shit like the fact that from like, 877? to 1492 major parts of the iberian peninsula were under Muslim control, or the Khazars! no one ever talks about the Khazars. or trade routes, or how like. none of this existed in a vacuum…. sorry…..
sorry…. this is why…. the middle ages is the Most Fun to study…. and also why i get so consistently pissed off about the way ppl reduce the middle ages down to ~the dark ages thank gosh 4 the enlightenment amirite~~~~~ because there was a LOT going on in the middle ages, and a lot more cross-cultural contact than we in general have been led to believe #conspiracy theory.
petition for a doctor who episode where the doctor travels back in time to meet arthur conan doyle and accidentally happens to mention how popular sherlock holmes is even 130 years later and poor acd almost breaks down crying
"Doctor before you leave…just tell me one thing." "What’s that?" "My books, the Sherlock Holmes books…do they die out?" "No, Arthur. People love them. They carry on for hundreds of years." "Damnit. God damnit. Fuck."
its nigh impossible to find a map that has all of the information i want to convey on it
and esp hard to find a map that has all the info i want to convey or even SOME of the info i want to convey thats also like, easy to read??? slash not in german. slash, not useful/from the wrong century/biased due to when it was published.
and its v irritating for stuff like ethnic groups where they just stick like, the name of an ethnic group somewhere on the map but they dont draw boundaries around the approx area where the group would have been its just floating there. which i understand cause its not like theres nesc boundary lines but it is. extremely frustrating. just a bunch of words floating in the map-ether in loose relation to each other
i mean really what i want is a map w/ mult layers showing different info on each layer but thats not A Thing
No nominee shall appear on the final Award ballot if it received fewer nominations than five percent (5%) of the number of ballots listing one or more nominations in that category, except that the first three eligible nominees, including any ties, shall always be listed.
WHICH I GUESS MAKES SENSE IN THEORY?
the problem is this clause disproportionately negatively effects the short story category (and by extension short story writers) because more short stories are eligible in general than novels/novellas/novelettes just cause, there’s more of them published by the scifi peoples in a calendar year. So you got a p good chance that the stories w/ the most votes are going to appear on a low percentage of the overall ballots cast.
Except that like, in other categories? It gets close to this low of the percentage? So it’s not like 5%/less than 5% is a HUGE OUTLIER.
Which, okay, let me explain — so the Hugos actually release every year what percentage of ppl voted for each thing for the final vote, and also what percentage of ppl nominated each work on the initial nominating ballots, as well as what was close to getting on the ballot.
If you scroll down near the end on the Hugo 2013 stats, you can see that in a lot of the categories where individual works instead of people/magazines/whatever are nominated, the % is usually around 15% or less. And for the short story category, there were two stories that were at like, 4.something% but didn’t make the cut because not five percent.
And there’s a fairly small amount of people nominating, which is its OWN problem, but just means its really frustrating because like, four or five ballots can be the difference between “made the cut” and “didn’t make the cut.”
What this translates down to is — the better a year it is for short stories, the worse a year it is for short story writers w/r/t their chance to get on the ballot. There were a lot of really fantastic stories that came out last year and that I thought deserved to get on the ballot — and boy am I gonna be pissed if they were two votes away from getting on the ballot. (Like “A Hollow Play” by Amal El-Mohtar, which made me cry while I was at work or “Selected Program Notes from the Retrospective Exhibition of Theresa Rosenberg Latimer” by Kenneth Schneyer which got on the Nebula ballot and makes me cry every time I listen to it, or “The Urashima Effect” by E. Lily Yu which made me cry while I was getting groceries.)
I know it’s probably not a TERRIBLE rule it’s just, man does it disproportionately effect the category that is my Baby and that I have perhaps the most opinions on out of all of them.
my moms homemade ice cream cake is sooooooo goooooood and is making me Reminisce on the weird variety of careers my parents have had and how this has given them a Unique Set of Skils kids if u have like three or four or more really weird & different jobs/careers b4 the one you Settle On just kno that all its going to do is make you Stronger and More Powerful
anyway moral of story — homemade ice cream cake comma V Good.
Here, we come to the final questions: how can one achieve true intersectional representation when straw feminists like Whedon monopolize accessible attempts at transgression? How do we hold our artists accountable when writers like Roth grant themselves the final and definitive word?